Thursday, June 12, 2014

I am Scared of Success

As you know I am always honest with you. Well today I am revealing a huge issue that I am trying to deal with. I am scared of success. Why? I couldn't really tell you the main reason why. 

I know it has been a huge barrier for me in my weight loss journey and a lot of areas in my life. I think for my weight loss, its the fact of I don't know what I will look like when I lose the weight I need to lose. I haven't ever really been a regular size my whole life. I was always a little chubbier or just had a stomach at least. For some reason I just have this fear of it because I know everything I have ever dreamed of and wanted is just on the other side of the barrier. I don't know why I am so scared to jump over or bust through that barrier that has been there too long in my life. 

Now I just joined an awesome new company about a week and a half ago. I have been super happy in this new company but I have to be honest, I have been dealing with a lot of anxiety and stress issues. I just had a little bit of an epiphany. I think I strive for perfection way too much. Thinking that even when I start out that I need to be perfect all the time. Nobody is perfect. Even the most successful person in the world isn't perfect. The only person who is perfect is Jesus. 

I know that Jesus has been giving me so much peace when I have my anxiety problems. I have to admit, I am scared out of my mind right now. Just thinking about all the people I have to talk to and the yearning for wanting to make sales. But I know that Jesus has a perfect plan for me and I just have to trust Him! I know this a brand new thing for me and I have to give it time to work. 

As of today I am going after that success no matter how much anxiety and other issues try to hold me back. I deserve to be happy. I deserve to have success. I want to fight for it. I am going to work hard for it! I know it will pay off well in the long run!

I hope all of you have a great day! Strive for greatness!