Being Fat is NOT a Disability.

Recently I went to Dallas with one of my best friends. I am a super morbidly obese person as most of you know. We normally don't easily fit or fit at all in just one plane seat unfortunately. Our first part of the flight to Los Angeles was fine because there was barely anyone on the flight. Once we got to our next terminal it was a whole different story. Just to be safe I asked one of the workers if it was a full flight. Sure enough it was 100% full. So we walked away to go to the barroom. Then sets in the panic and freak out mode because I don't like to make people feel uncomfortable. So after we finished up in the bathroom and we walked back to the terminal to wait for the flight. A worker came up to me and pulled me to the side. She told me that they were going to take care of me and give me an extra seat so we can comfortably fit in the row.

Apparently under some law or something they have to accommodate larger people now because they put it under the category of DISABILITY! Don't get me wrong I am so grateful that they helped me out because I was able to stop stressing and was able to enjoy the flight. But at the same time it makes me really upset with myself!! I don't want to have to be accommodated because of my idiotic choices that I have made over the past 13+ years of not eating healthy and not totally taking off my weight. It's not their fault that I am a super morbidly obese person! It's MY FAULT! So we go up to the counter and she prints me up a ticket to put on the seat next to me. Then she put the tickets in a disability sleeve so we could pre-board. I'm sorry but a disability?? It is NOT a disability with me being fat. It's all about choices. I do not have a disability and I am fighting hard to make sure something like this never ever ever ever has to happen again!

As of tomorrow, Tuesday 8/27/2013 I am going to do a 90 day challenge! Phase 1 is the first 90 days. I want to do the 90 day segments just like they do on Extreme Weight Loss. I just won't be doing the crazy weight loss they do because I want to go at my own pace. I am going to take a whole year to really focus on myself and make me the best me that I can make!! If I don't complete all of my goals in this coming year, it doesn't matter because I will have made huge strides! Even if I have to do it in 2 years that's great because those 2 years will be the best years of my life! Want to know why? Because I am fighting for my life and I will be adding back many years onto my life! I am not defined by my size or the number on the scale!

We had another situation happen where we were ordering food and she was looking at me talking about "us bigger girls." In my head I'm thinking uhhhh no. I am not that girl anymore! Yes I still may have a larger body and clothes for the moment but I consider myself a fit girl. The reason why I consider myself a fit girl is because you become what you think you are! 

So my friends, I am going to propose a challenge! I will be doing this challenge along side you also! I challenge you to go buy Chris Powell's new book Choose More, Lose More For Life. Read it from cover to cover and start a fresh new journey with me!! If you want to lose weight or just trim up, this will be a great challenge for you. I do have to admit though, I am still currently reading his book. So here it is. For the next 90 days I am going to just focus on eating healthy (eating the right foods) and working out. I am not even going to weigh myself until the 90th day. I have always set myself up for failure but not this time! I have always done a "challenge" and said I was going to lose such and such pounds. Well not this time. I'm not even going to give myself a goal of how many pounds to lose. My goal is just to stay on track woth eating the right foods and stay consistent with working out. My 90 day challenge is starting tomorrow August 27th, 2013. So my challenge will end a day before my birthday on November 25th and that will be when I weigh in. Anyways I hope and challenge you to join me on this journey!! If you need encouragement or support just contact me through Facebook or comment on this blogpost! I love you all and want the very best for you!!

Confessions of a Food Addict.

There I said it. I got it off my chest. I, Kirstin, have a food addiction. 

I have to admit, addictions are the worst! Sometimes I wish that I had a different form of an addiction because you can't get away from food. You have to eat it in order to survive. But I will conquer my addiction! I need to cut the emotional ties from food. I need to somehow figure out how to get rid of my addiction. I am working on it I promise!

The thing is.. I LOVE working out. It's just the eating that kills me every time. I am bigger than my addiction and I will no longer let it have control over me. Yes I may slip up sometimes but that's just what happens in life. I need to learn that I can treat myself every once and a while and not feel guilty about it!

Now onto really positive news!! So as you all know I have been working out in the Dungeon for technically about a month. I haven't been going as consistently as I needed to in the past but now I am going on a regular basis, except for today because I woke up with a huge headache and I have been throwing up.. I don't know what's wrong with my stomach today!

Anyways, my trainers Jamie and Josh are just all around amazing people! They seriously turn your life around! They are helping me save mine! I was totally upfront with Jamie yesterday about my food problem and now we are going to deal with it. It definitely took a huge weight off my shoulders when I told her that. So yesterday after my workout I wanted to see if I had made any progress with inches.. I thought that I hadn't lost anything or even gotten bigger.. Well here is some great news!!!! I have lost 26 inches all over so far :D I am so proud of myself! I know it could have been a bigger number but it can only go up from here and I am so excited!! I couldn't stop smiling all day yesterday because of it!

Thank you so much Jamie and Josh! I am forever grateful! I know I say that a lot on here but I really am!! Thank you for saving my life.. Literally!

I hope everyone has a beautiful and blessed day!! I am going to go lay down now and try to feel better!!

Love always,
Kirstin

Train like a beast. Look like a Beauty!

I officially have two new sayings. Train like a beast/ look like a beauty! My other one is WIP. WIP means Work in Progress! It's so true because I am a work in progress daily!! I haven't posted a blog on here for almost a year.. and to be honest that makes me a little sad because I used to love blogging so much! I really truly want to get back into the habit of it!

So here I am and I am turning a new leaf! I am a caterpillar that is officially finally going into her cocoon! I feel like a broken record for how many times I have talked about me losing weight. Well at least I keep getting back up on the horse and try, try again. 

This time is different for me. One of my awesome friends Stashia had found a trainer through her friend Jenni and told me about her. The funny part is, that trainer lives literally right around the corner from me! My trainers names are Jamie and Josh. They are an amazing married couple that literally transforms peoples lives! The Dungeon is seriously a place where you can go and you won't be judged for how you look or any of that kind of stuff! They just got a new place for their training and they are having everyone write their names, dates they started on, and what progress they have made. It gives me the chills when I look at everyone's progress. I am so thankful for the Dungeon because it literally has sparked that flame that I need in order to keep going when I get knocked down.

Let me tell you about some amazing women that I have come to know in the Dungeon. There is Jenni, Vanessa, Tara, Chanel, and Ally. There are a lot of other people that I have met but these ladies are the ones that I have worked out with the most and that really inspire me. 
All of them are absolutely amazing! When they are in the dungeon they are like a girl with her eye on the prize! 
Jenni is looking absolutely amazing! You can tell a great difference from her before picture! I just love the fact that she always has a smile on her face and even though she may break down sometimes because it is too hard, she always returns to finish it! That is determination right there!
Vanessa is looking really amazing too!! I am so glad that I met her because she is really encouraging and she also always has a smile on her face! I am so proud of her for the amazing progress that she has made! I can't wait to see more results from her!!
I've only been able to workout with Chanel a couple of times but she is awesome up in the Dungeon! She is also a very determined person and she also inspires me a lot!
I just met Ally a couple workouts ago and I am so glad that I met her. Ally is Josh's sister and because of that fact Josh is really hard on her with her workouts! She seriously is a beast when she works out because she does everything that he tells her to do! I would die if I had to do everything that he has her do! She has gotten some freaking amazing results though! She dropped I believe 5 pant sizes in 5 weeks! When I saw that my jaw literally dropped! It definitely shows you that hard work pays off!
Last and definitely not least is Tara! This girl seriously makes my jaw drop for how determined she is! It gives me chills just thinking about it! She was in the dungeon for 2 and a half hours last night! That means heart rate up the whole time and sweating!! It's just crazy! She has been with Jamie for 5 months and she has shrunk over 70 inches!! How amazing is that!? When I look at Tara, or any of the other people in the gym, it gives me faith that I can do it too!

I am so beyond grateful for the Dungeon family! It is a huge blessing! 

You will be seeing more postings from me in the near future! and with progress pictures too!! Hope all of you have an amazing and beautiful day!! 

~Kirstin